The one thing about blogging is that it is your personal responsibility and no one can push you to create time for it.
For the past few months, I have made strides to better a lot in my life. Ever since July of 2012, I just haven’t been feeling like the same Abraham. I even made a few posts on my personal website (FierceAndLove.com) to explain some of the things I’ve been going through. Last semester was pretty hard for me–without going into too much detail. Even though that was the case, I still managed to blog every so often and did quite well in October. But I still hadn’t found a proper schedule for myself to fit in homework, blogging, an internship, and a personal life in the little time I felt like I had. But I decided to change all that.
When 2013 rolled around, I made it a mission to be a better person and leave a lot of negative memories and feelings behind in 1990-2012 where they belonged. Yes, my issues consisted of family and friends among other things, but that didn’t have to be the case. I realized I was doing a lot of damage by holding onto these things. But I do have to admit, I’ve been doing very well since the new year. Although I do encounter mood swings from time to time, I can admit that I’m mostly happy everyday. And I’ve left a lot of my worrying (for things I can’t change) in the past. Since the new year, I’ve just been struggling with getting my sleep pattern in order and organizing time for homework and blogging.
The stress of last year has caused me to become a nocturnal creature. This is nothing new, as I’ve explained on Twitter many times that I actually do suffer from insomnia and have since I was about 12 years old. Ever since then, I can remember going to bed later and later each night until bedtime became noon and wake time was around 6PM. Crazy. I’ve only been to sleep at noon once since November, and luckily I haven’t stayed up 24 hours like I did in fall of 2011–three times.
The major thing that’s been holding me back is laziness. When I have a lot on my plate, I become lazy and give up on some things. My blog is the result of that. I apologize. I tried to do some things in February just to keep my readers entertained, but someone mentioned a few days ago that it had almost been a month since I last blogged, and that made me realize time flies.
My one year anniversary was on March 1st. I think it’s time I finally mention what else has been going on, and why the featured picture is different than that of the header you normally see. I am–and have been since November–in the works of creating a NEW ATFierce.com along with a natural hair blog. I just feel as though my brand wasn’t “Fierce” enough and was also a little sloppy. Most of the changes incorporate new colors (my favorite colors) into my brand, and I am so happy with the new designs I’ve come out with. I’ve also been in the works of creating a natural hair & skin care line. I’ve been emailing, texting, tweeting different people and friends of friends to find all the things I need to make this launch go off perfectly. And I’ve been writing a lot more. I was working on a novel since 2008, dropped it in 2011 because I needed to do more research, picked up a second one in fall of 2012, and have been writing both of them back and forth since then. It’s not a lot, because I get different inspiration for either one every week and will sit down to write a chapter outline or the actual chapter.
Yeah, there’s been a lot on my plate, but I don’t want to neglect the things that I’ve always loved. I just have to find the time for it all. I’m such a procrastinator, and my first task is to try and get my sleep in order. I’ve been on a sleep aid routine for that. And I’m organizing the launch for my two new sites for the next month. Whew. It’s a lot in conjunction with school, but I’ll make it happen.
I just thought it was finally time to mention all of this so you guys would know what was going on. It definitely hasn’t been fair to all those that actually enjoy reading my site. Beyonce’s ‘Life Is But A Dream’ has definitely inspired me to never give up, be in control of my fate, and change with the times. I can’t rely on the same routines and thoughts to further me tomorrow and the next day. I’m trying to connect all the dots in my life so they’ll come together and create the bigger picture.
Thank you for sticking with me for this long. Stay sweet everyone. Fierce & Love.